Wednesday, January 16, 2013


It has nearly been two months since I lost my little buddy.  I miss him so much.  My pain has not healed.  I have been through so much these last couple of months.  It is funny how my marriage has crumbled but the only thing that can make me cry is thinking of Buzzy.  I found this poem I had printed off the internet.  I can't remember who's page I saw it on but it makes me cry.  I don't even know if it is complete or who wrote it but here it is.  I found the rest of this on 2/24/2013.  I still am crying for my little man.

The Greatest Gift
  I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then!  How I love you now!
I made a promise then, and I will keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal,
You will not know the loss of life remembered, now gone.

It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies and my fears ride high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.

It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know.
When to lay aside my grief, my guilt, my anger,
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
And give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
Your eyes will speak to mine, and I will know.

The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
And unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief.. no peace.

For if there's one thing you've taught me,
If there's only one thing I've learned..
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, if you cannot go alone.
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.

Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth.
Go find the ones who've gone before you.
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar.
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.

I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
In the dark and lonely days ahead.
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.

So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift... sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love..
For only the greatest love can say,
"Good-bye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all"

Author  Karla M. Bertram    

The rest of the poem is missing.  I must of tossed it on accident.  I am hoping to find a copy of it somewhere so I can finish putting it here.  I need to get some pictures of Buzzy and have them framed.  I plan on planting a garden over his and Esther's graves this spring.

1 comment:

  1. The 12th of this month marked the 8th anniversary I lost my black lab. Linda, to this day I still cry over her. There are those who are in our hearts and they will never leave. I'm sorry you are going through that intense pain right now. He was absolutely adorable.


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