Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Winter is here

Winter has finally descended on us here At the base of the mountains.  We got about 4 inches of snow from the last storm that walloped the east coast.  I have been going to my therapist appointments as well as the the kids.  My stepson has only gone once.  They suspect he has some type of "spectrum" disorder.  By spectrum they mean autism.  I have suspected that for a long time by his behaviors.  I am still having a very difficult time dealing with his behaviors and physical problems that he has.  If you are curious about the physical problem.. Google encropsis.  I don't want to go into detail here but it is not pleasant to deal with at all.  My therapist has recommends that I go to Four Winds hospital for an outpatient program to get a look at my symptoms and my meds and see if adjustments are needed, which I'm sure they are.  I have not been dealing well at all with life in general.  I am frequently tired, occasionally get so agitated I start yelling and ranting at everyone.  I just got up and I feel physically exhausted.  I am going to the breast specialist in January.  The mass in my breast has gotten larger and my nipple has disappeared into my breast.  I have to dig it out to wash under it.  I'm wondering if that may have something to do with the tiredness I feel all the time.  I am not loosing weight or anything like that.  I am hoping the original diagnosis of no cancer is still there, but I would like to know what it is that is in there that is growing.  I'm so glad that I have free health insurance right now because I'm sure I am going to have to get a bunch of tests run all over again.  I just hope that they can figure things out before I start classes in January or at least that it doesn't interfere with my schedule.  I can take most classes online I think, but some I may have to go onto campus for.  My husband suggested that I go and get retested for the sleep apnea.  I was diagnosed with mild sleep apnea, he said that people with bi-polar problems can have worse symptoms with sleep apnea.  Or sleep apnea can cause problems that mimic bi-polar something like that I can't remember.. I just hate the test and sleeping in a strange place.  I'm tired.. might just go back to bed before I have to go to the therapist.  I've been up for two whole hours.. wow.. 

Friday, December 3, 2010

I have been busy the last couple days.  Going to therapists, Dr. appts and shopping.  I got Sarah a nice fake fur vest she wanted for Christmas.  Reminded me of the rabbit fur jacket that was so popular when I was a kid.  Don't feel bad, I am glad no rabbits suffered for me!  I also got myself a couple of holiday tops!  $10 ea from Walmart.  I filled out my FAFSA and TAP for grants.  I had to send away for another school transcript, they wanted one unsealed.  If I get accepted, then I have to register for classes, do my immunization titre, etc. etc.  Hoping to start in January.  Sarah had some testing done in school and she registered high in a few areas of concern.  Inattention, Learning problems, Agression, Peer relations Negative Mood, Interpersonal problems, ineffectiveness, negative self esteem and something called anhedonia  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anhedonia   That is pretty scary.  I guess anything over 70 is of concern.  She scored high on the ADHD scales and the depression scales too.  I am glad she is in counseling and I saw her Dr. today and we are increasing the ADHD meds to see if it helps.  Karl is going to be seeing a therapist that specializes in areas of Spectrum disorders (autism).  I suspected that myself.   He has been cut off the games all together on weekdays and is limited to two hours a day on weekends.  Not for punishment but because he is so highly addicted and shows the autism symptoms more while playing.  Wow, I am just full of joyful news huh?  We have decided not to go to Florida and are taking them to the Great Escape indoor water park for two days.  In February, Rich and I are going to Atlantic City to hang out at the Tropicana!  I want to see the boardwalk too!  I decided I could not handle a car trip with those savages!  Maybe we can try next year.