Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Weird dream/past life?

I fell asleep this afternoon and have a very strange and realistic dream.  It was almost like I was living a past life.  I was a young man and I experienced my life from childhood to young adult.  My father was a horse trainer and had show horses.  I remember learning how to ride and show horses.  The time period was in the pre-world WW2 era.  We lived in Europe.  I rescued a draft horse that I named Tommy.  He was a Suffolk Punch breed horse.  He was lame in his rear left leg and I bid against a slaughter house owner for him.  I rehabilitated Tommy and he became a champion.  The war started and in this dream I saw planes flying over the barns and bombs dropping.  I was trying to rescue the horses and not get killed.  The Nazis were coming to take the remaining horses.  I got on Tommy and was riding away into the forest.  I fell off at some point and was mortally wounded.  I was on a steep embankment and Tommy was at the top.  I called to him and he came to me and I grabbed the reins and he pulled me to the top.  I lay there and took my last breath and died.  It was then that I woke up.  
It is strange because my mother was born in 1945 at the end of WW2 and she is of French heritage.  I guess I read too much into things, but it felt like I was living a past life.  The Suffolk Punch horse was bred in England and used during war time to pull heavy machinery.  They were also sold to slaughterhouses for meat.  It is considered a rare breed today.

Friday, July 21, 2017


I seem to be pretty regular with the monthly blogging.  I should do more.  It seems like I really don't do to much.  I had been sick twice since late June with this strange illness.  It was like having the flu except no coughing.  Very debilitating with me in bed for 4 days at a time.  I got very weak and couldn't eat.  I finally went to the Dr. and ended up seeing the PA.  They did blood work and a CT scan.  The blood work came back wonky but they didn't seem to concerned about it.  The CT scan showed a little fluid around my heart, diverticulitis, a small hernia and some tiny minor things that are no big deal.  Oh and a fatty pancreas.  Still no referrals to see anyone except a suggestion to see my oncologist.   I think I have an appointment coming up with him soon anyhow.  I have my appointment with the GI doctor in August to schedule my COLONOSCOPY!  Not looking forward to that but perhaps they can find out why my digestive tract is so messed up.  My weight has dropped to 174.  That is a 34 pound weight loss in one year.  I really haven't been trying except eating less and not eating junk food.  
I had an unusual butterfly visit this month.  It was a Giant Swallowtail.  My first sighting ever.  
Travis and Krys are going to look at a mobile home tomorrow.  I hope they get it.  I got very angry with Travis a few days ago.  Asked him to get something from the pharmacy for me and he gave me attitude.  I said I'm sick of them mooching off me and told him he has 30 days to move out.  
Sarah is going to be 18 in a little over a month.  I think her transition into adulthood is going to be a little rough too.  I think the diabetes is going to be a big factor, especially with this new horrible health care plan that Trump and the republicans are trying to shove through.  Well enough of the negativity.  My goal is to post more and to do more positive things!

Giant Swallowtail