Thursday, April 4, 2013

Working on me

I can't say that life for me has been easy lately.  It has been very hard emotionally and somewhat hard physically.  I am still having a lot of anger over Rich and his behavior with his new girlfriend.  I have been going to counseling at the Va and it seems to be helping somewhat.  I am just having a hard time coming to terms with him moving on so quickly and not caring what I think or how I feel.  I have to remember than I am the one who asked him to leave.  I wish he didn't live right next door, I didn't think it would be like this.  He has no shame.  
I still have a lot of pain problems with by back, hips and legs.  I need to get out and exercise more and try to loose some weight.  I am up to 217.  I have never been this heavy before.  I weighed 30 lbs less when full term with a baby!
Spring is very slow to come this year and the cold is depressing.  I have to have the heat on still and it is so expensive.  I want to get out and do some fishing this week.  I have to stop and pick up some bait and some hooks.  I would like to try to catch some trout!  Being outdoors for me is the best therapy I can think of.