Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Winter is here
Winter has finally descended on us here At the base of the mountains. We got about 4 inches of snow from the last storm that walloped the east coast. I have been going to my therapist appointments as well as the the kids. My stepson has only gone once. They suspect he has some type of "spectrum" disorder. By spectrum they mean autism. I have suspected that for a long time by his behaviors. I am still having a very difficult time dealing with his behaviors and physical problems that he has. If you are curious about the physical problem.. Google encropsis. I don't want to go into detail here but it is not pleasant to deal with at all. My therapist has recommends that I go to Four Winds hospital for an outpatient program to get a look at my symptoms and my meds and see if adjustments are needed, which I'm sure they are. I have not been dealing well at all with life in general. I am frequently tired, occasionally get so agitated I start yelling and ranting at everyone. I just got up and I feel physically exhausted. I am going to the breast specialist in January. The mass in my breast has gotten larger and my nipple has disappeared into my breast. I have to dig it out to wash under it. I'm wondering if that may have something to do with the tiredness I feel all the time. I am not loosing weight or anything like that. I am hoping the original diagnosis of no cancer is still there, but I would like to know what it is that is in there that is growing. I'm so glad that I have free health insurance right now because I'm sure I am going to have to get a bunch of tests run all over again. I just hope that they can figure things out before I start classes in January or at least that it doesn't interfere with my schedule. I can take most classes online I think, but some I may have to go onto campus for. My husband suggested that I go and get retested for the sleep apnea. I was diagnosed with mild sleep apnea, he said that people with bi-polar problems can have worse symptoms with sleep apnea. Or sleep apnea can cause problems that mimic bi-polar something like that I can't remember.. I just hate the test and sleeping in a strange place. I'm tired.. might just go back to bed before I have to go to the therapist. I've been up for two whole hours.. wow..