Grateful

 

It is funny how I complain so much about not having money but God always provided.  We were down to our last dollar literally and been eating nothing but pasta, chicken from the food pantry and cereal.  Yesterday our neighbor Rick has Rich help him with some work and Rich has been dog sitting for him, so he gave him $30.  He was able to go out and get some food to last us until Tuesday.  
It doesn't mean that I like being broke.. not at all.  I would love to be able to feel secure with food and paying the bills etc..  I want to be able to treat my kids to something once in a while.  I told my husband about a couple night janitorial positions I saw in the online ads and he turned it down.  Oh they don't pay much.. I told him it was better than nothing!  
He doesn't want to do manual labor or take an entry level position.  I put a couple ads on Craigslist to do elder care or infant care and horse/pet care.  I got one response from a guy who wants someone to do housekeeping.  Now I hate cleaning, but if it is not some creepo and the job is fairly easy I might do it.  With my luck he will want a naked housekeeper!  LOL.. not my cup of tea!
We are expecting rain today getting heavier over the weekend and possible some snow.  That is disappointing but we do need rain.  I finally remembered what I planted out in the garden this fall.  Allium!  I have always wanted some of those.  They are budding already too.
This is what they should look like:

 I have smaller ones that look a little like that but are chives.  I took this picture today of a honeybee on a dandelion, I think I'll get a print and frame it for the fair this year.

 Anyhow that is all the news I have.. I'm not feeling so angry now.  I realize I'm hard on Rich and I need to be thankful for what I have.  It is hard however to live with a man who won't get a job.