I was thinking the other day about what a strange life I have had. I've been places and done things and experienced so much. I know a lot of things in my life are and have been unpleasant but I feel like writing about them sometimes. Not to place blame or to shame anyone but just to maybe help myself reflect and figure out why I am the way I am. There is no way I can put things in chronological order. So I will just put down memories and try to remember when these things happened. I will mix the happy with the sad. The bad with the good. I have done many shameful things but many things I am proud of also. I think it would be redundant to start with, I was born and try to recount things in order. My memory is not that good! I don't remember being born. I know we were poor. My Mom told me how poor we were and how my Dad and her struggled to raise three kids. My Dad built our house we lived in. It had tar paper on it as long as I could remember. He dug the well himself. I don't remember much about living with my Dad because we left when I was very young. I can really only remember a couple of things that happened living with my Dad. I am not going to start remembering things in this entry. I guess it is just going to be a start. An introduction of sorts. This picture is of me and my sister. I am in red.