My suggestion did not go over to well with my husband. He thinks we can work things out. I tried explaining to him about the anxiety and anger etc.. and he thinks it is something that we can work on. I can't work on it, I have tried and tried for over 3 years now. I am even angry at him in my dreams. I had a dream where I was having a nervous breakdown and I woke up with symptoms of having another nervous breakdown. I feel like I'm heading down that path again. He told me that he doesn't have anywhere to go. I told him if he had a job and could support himself and his son that wouldn't be a problem. Why should I have to take care of him?
The whole medical insurance thing has hindered us too. If he gets a job with no benefits we will loose our health insurance because we will make too much money. If he gets a job with benefits sometimes family health insurance is an outrageous amount. Either way we are screwed. I'm so mad that he is trying to justify his staying here. I feel like I will cave and let him. Maybe I'll tell him to go pack the tent and stay at a campground for a week.. Or go to the family summer house for a couple weeks. I suggested that. He doesn't seem to keen on that idea. I told him it is not my problem. I told him this is my house and I will not leave it. I already had to leave one house behind because of that asshat I used to live with. People who know me will know all about that situation. 12 years of hell being trapped with someone. I am feeling trapped again. Why am I so fucking stupid when it comes to men? I must have sucker written all over me.
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