I think I may be suffering from some depression or having a mid life crisis or something. I do take anxiety meds but I switched recently to a generic version of Lexapro and have really not been good. I don't feel anxious, I get very irritable and angry. I am just sick of everything. Sick of my job, sick of the kids, sick of my husband (gasp) sick of the weather, sick of chores, sick of these animals at the house. The list goes on. It is compounded by my inability to stay organized and be able to find things when I need them. I am a chronic "loser" of things. Most of these things are important. Like my Social security card. I lost my new one. Now I have to reapply. I misplace bills, paystubs, all kinds of things. All the time. If I need it I can guarantee I will not be able to find it. Right now I am not only missing my SS card I am missing this black leather zipper portfolio thing I used since the AirForce to hold my important documents. Missing. I swear I saw it in the car trunk not that long ago but husband says its not there. I can't find it in the bedroom. My bedroom by the way looks like something from an episode of Hoarders. I am not joking in any means. I have boxes of stuff covered with piles of clothes. I hate to throw things away. I have good intentions and put them in bags to donate but the bags sit there and then get ripped and then everything is all over the place again. I get so overwhelmed by all this crap that I just walk by it. I have tried getting organized, really I have, but it keeps coming back. I am a lazy person by nature and that is a big part of the problem. I'm not really looking for tips or advice. I am just venting. I feel sorry for my husband to have to live with me like this. He is the type that needs a lot of romance and I have zero interest in that. ZERO! Just the thought of having to have romance makes me feel like crying. After romance I am relieved, mostly because I know I can get away with not having to have romance for a couple more days. He also has to deal with my mood swings. Not pleasant. I am snappy and snarly. Mostly I just want to be left alone. Ok enough whining and moaning... Try to have a nice weekend. Probably just hung a big black cloud over yours.. LOL
You have a case of the winter blues for sure. Hope tomorrow will be much better for you. Remember 'this too shall pass' it always does.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon Linda. You are probably having to stay inside to much on account of the weather. It is strange that you can't find your black bag with important papers though. Helen
ReplyDeleteWow! Well i hope you feel better now Linda just writing it out. I know u dont want advice but you need the sunshine vitamin, vitamin D!!! try it woman.
ReplyDeleteYou may have to change to a different med. I find I need to change every couple of years. Winter always makes my moods worse too. Feel better.
ReplyDeleteDoesn't sound like your anti-depressant is working. Ask for a review by your doctor. Hope your black cloud lifts soon :-)
ReplyDeleteOther than the losing things this could have been written by me. I echo the "sick ofs" that you list. Winter blues? Maybe, but mine is definately menopause as I have heat flashes every five minutes it seems. I agree with the others - ask your doctor for new meds. Hope you start to feel better about things soon.
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I was so much like this. Turns out I was going through menopause, had a vitamin D deficiency, high cholesterol, and hypothyroidism, then on top of that got a probable diagnosis of MS! Have you had a physical and blood work done lately? They should check for some of this! I feel soooo much better now!
ReplyDeleteI came back to link your blog to mine and I re-read this and wondered how you are doing now???
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