Sunday, April 12, 2020

Holiday pissy mood

I have grown to hate holidays.  They have become meaningless, lonely days.  I am usually alone and rarely make an effort to celebrate.  I know a lot of this is due to depression.  Of course being in "lock down" isn't helping either.  
Today is Easter.  I always enjoyed that holiday as a kid and made sure my kids had a good Easter as well.  Now that they are grown and I'm alone with no social support or friends, I am lonely.  
Positive things... my daffodils are starting to bloom and my other perennials are coming up along with the dreaded mugwort.  The day started off sunny, but is now cloudy.  
I finished readying a good book yesterday.  It is called "The Lost Queen" by Signe Pike.  There will be a sequel coming out in the fall.  My reading selections recently haven't been exactly "classic literature".  I've been going thru an erotic romance phase with everything from aliens to supernatural beings.  So this previous book was a nice change.  I'm glad that I have Kindle unlimited.  I can read dozens of books for just a few dollars a month.  The Lost queen is on Kindle right now, but I read the paperback version.  
I transplanted my sweet potato vine into dirt today.  I will have to keep bringing it indoors at night until it is warm enough to leave it outside.  I think I might plant morning glory seeds in the porch planters this year.  I think they will look nice trailing down the side of the porch.  
I discovered that my lovely ex left some type of appliance on my patio covered with a tarp.  I don't know why, but I thought it was a grill until I peeked under it.  I think it is a washing machine. I know nothing about it.  I will ask Rich if it works and if not, I will have someone come and get it for scrap.
My new lawnmower is here and I assembled it.  I haven't tried it yet.  The grass is too short still.  I have to pick up more sticks in the yard as well.  I will have to clear out a spot for it in the shed so I don't ruin it like all the other mowers I have had.
Anyhow, I'm glad spring is here and I hope this stay at home thing stops soon.  I want to go for a road trip!   

Tuesday, April 7, 2020

Stepfather and the tooth brush

Yesterday I was brushing my teeth and had a memory from when I was little and we lived with the evil stepfather.  One of his obsessions was us brushing our teeth.  He hated the idea of having to pay for us to go to the dentist.
He would monitor our brushing based on how "used" our toothbrushes looked.  One day, we all had to show him our toothbrushes.  My sister's and brother's looked all mashed up and mine looked normal.  I think they chewed on theirs to obtain that affect but let me out of the loop.  I of course was punished because I "didn't brush enough".  
We had a Waterpic device as well that we had to use.  That was actually fun!

Stay at home!

NY state has been under a stay at home advisory.  No gathering in groups, etc...  I have been home nearly all week except for a trip to the grocery and yesterday did a little walk to look for spring flowers.  All my pictures came out awful, but I did see the Hepatica starting and Coltsfoot.  I might go over to the Skidmore North woods today and see what I can find.  I also might go to the Orra Phelps nature preserve, the snow trillium are blooming.  

I've been trying to get the yard cleaned up, but it is a slow process.  I ordered a new electric lawnmower!  I'm hoping it will be easier to deal with than the old gas mower.  It is smaller, but I think it will be easier to use and I can store it in the shed.  

My client's family is temporarily suspending service at this time due to the virus.  I can't blame them because the DIL works as a respiratory therapist and they have an elderly person at home.  
I'll have to see if there is any part time hours I can pick up. 

Yesterday, one of the neighbors had someone over with their car stereo on and the bass thumping away.  I hope that isn't something I am going to have to deal with on a regular basis.  If so, I'm going to have to say something.  

The day before that, some jackass was shooting a gun in the woods behind the park.  This went on for over an hour, non-stop except to reload.  I like shooting myself, but this just got aggravating!  

I seem to be bitching a lot as usual.  Today is my brother's birthday, he is 52.  My stepdad had a birthday yesterday.  I think he is 68.