I am starting to feel angry and resentful again. How could I have let myself get trapped in this situation again?
I should never have come back to NY. I want to pack up and leave again. I can't live with him, I just can't. I don't like feeling that I am responsible for him. I'm not. He is either going to have to deal with being here alone or leave.
I can't do it. I just can't.
The weather isn't helping either. If it isn't freezing, it's raining. Will spring ever come? I have to figure out what I'm going to do with this house. Either he takes it or I sell it.
He has been talking about traveling with me. Oh God, I can't even imagine.
Maybe I should tell him he has to find another place to live and just use this as my "home base" for travel. I will have to rehome the cats though. Glad I am seeing my counselor in a couple days.
